My Life as Seen Through my Pharmacist’s Eyes

all of it

The entirety of my current medication regimen

Chronic Lyme Antibiotics

My Current Chronic Lyme Disease Antibiotic Regimen

just say no to yeast

Antibiotics = Yeast Infections. My attempts to prevent them during long-term antibiotic use.

Standard Meds

2 Antidepressants I hope to quit when I no longer have chronic pain, Singulair for allergies, Crestor for Cholesterol and birth control pills because I can barely handle Bella as it is


I still need a few more supplements because of the Lyme, but these are the basics

Pain Relief

My “Super” Cream, Hydrocodone, Oxycodone, Klonopin (because anxiety is fun!) and my trusty Sumatriptan

A Week's Worth

I’m Only 37-Years-Old and I Take All this Crap Every Day. WTF?

Sleep Training Fail

It’s going to be a LONG day…

Bella actually went to sleep without much of a fight at all last night. But I know my daughter, and I knew she was saving the middle-of-the-night waking for when R had to work the next day.

Around 12:30am she woke up and started crying. I let her go for 5 minutes and then went and sat with her for 5 minutes.

Then I let her cry for 10 minutes before going back in and sitting with her for 5 minutes.

After I left her room, I had to take a sumatriptan because I had woken up with a migraine. Meanwhile, Bella cried for 15 minutes and then I went in to sit with her for 5 minutes.

But I didn’t.

I fell asleep and woke up at 3am instead. Crap. Time to go back to my own bed.

When R started getting ready for work, I suggested he close her door to keep from disturbing her. He closed her door as quietly as a church mouse and then went into the bathroom. Bella must have been awake already because she immediately started crying.

I grabbed her and brought her back to bed with me, but she wouldn’t fall back to sleep there (the dogs in my room are too distracting). Then I tried bringing her back to her room and sitting with her, but she still wouldn’t go back to sleep.

So to recap:

  • Bella was up overnight
  • I had a migraine while sleep training
  • I spent too much time in the recliner, which is what I’ve been trying to avoid
  • Bella got up at 5:20am and would NOT go back to sleep
  • And of course, my neck is KILLING me

Oh well, there’s always tomorrow night.

Sleep Training, It’s My Favorite Thing!

Relieved parents

Last night was the first night trying to retrain Bella to go to sleep, in her room, when it was time for bed. A simple request for a nearly 2-year-old, but one she had begun to have extreme difficulty with.

We reverted back to our previous sleep training with our “modified” Ferber. She had fallen asleep on R and I picked her up and put her in her crib. She immediately started screaming.

We let this go for 5 minutes. Then I got her to lay back down and sat with her for 5 minutes.

I leave and we listen to 10 minutes of screaming before I return to yet again help her lie back down and then sit there for 5 minutes.

I leave again and we get to listen to her scream for 15 minutes, then I head back in and get her to lie down and sit with her for 5 minutes. (Side Note: sometime during this process she turned on the light in her closet which she can reach the switch for from her crib).

Finally, during the 20 minute crying session, she must have passed out from exhaustion.

This ordeal started at 8:20pm and ended around 9:35pm. It sucked.

All night I lay in bed waiting for her to wake up, knowing it would be harder to do the sleep training when I was sleepy. This means I didn’t sleep well, waking frequently until at 4am I really woke up with a nasty migraine. I took some sumatriptan, sat back in bed and prepared myself to tell R he had to handle her if she got up until I felt better.

But the time kept passing. And finally around 6:40am I heard a small voice, calming calling out “Mommy”. Holy crap, she slept through the night!

Then today, she ASKED to go down for her nap for the 2nd day in a row (she was getting cranky), and again slept almost 3 hours.

After bath time tonight we tried to put her to bed, but she started flipping out and saying something we couldn’t understand. Eventually she said yes when I asked if she wanted her medicine (Hyland’s Teething Tablets). After she had a few of those in the kitchen, I asked her if she wanted to go to bed and she said “No”. So I asked her if she wanted to snuggle on R and she said “Yes”. He got himself settled and she went back to her room to get her Pooh Bear and a blanket (she already had her binkie).

We let her rest on R while we watched several atrocious innings of the Phillies game and then I picked her up and said it was time for bed.

She was fine walking to her room.

She was fine when we got in there.

She was fine when I laid her in the crib.

She was fine as I talked to her for 30 seconds about me leaving the closet light on for her and Daddy and I being right down the hall.

Then she sat up, stood up, grabbed my arm and started screaming. Crap.

I “helped” her lay back down, threw her blanket over her legs and ran out of the room. Once I got out to the living room, I started the stop watch on my computer, ready for a repeat performance. But before we even hit 5 minutes, she was quiet already. Phew. I don’t know what things will be like overnight, if I’ll be as lucky as last night, but at least we’re on the right track.

Being Woken Up by Pain

At some point in their lives, most people will wake up and realize, “Wow, I hurt”. They hurt because they exercised too hard, they injured themselves or they have an illness. I’ve done this plenty of times myself (usually after yard work).

But being woken up BY pain is a completely different animal. You’re laying there, sleeping comfortably when suddenly you realize you’re not asleep anymore. You’re not quite awake, but there’s one thing you’re sure of: you’re in pain. For me, it’s the all-too-familiar pain of a migraine.

In the past, I was only woken up by a migraine a few times a year. The past week and a half it’s happened half a dozen times. I take sumatriptan, so back to bed and hope the pain goes away. It usually does but then you have migraine hangover all day. (For the layman: migraine hangover is a feeling of being tired, achy, lethargic, and worst of all; on the verge of the migraine coming back at any time).

But you’re not actually in pain at that time. Except I unfortunately am in pain because I have developed a horrible neck issue over the past 2 weeks as well. I basically keep a heat wrap around my neck 24/7. My muscle relaxers don’t work and I can’t take narcotics when I have a toddler to watch.

It’s frustrating. I’m trying to be positive, but it’s difficult when the day starts this way.

Doc T may get some of my blood work back today and if the neck pain persists, we’re going to do an MRI. But still no answers and no relief.

And I have a job interview tomorrow. My head says we NEED the money, but my heart starts breaking at the thought of being away from Bella. We’ll see how the interview goes. I unfortunately think my reluctance to be away from Bella comes through somehow.

I hope everyone else has a wonderful day. I’m going to try to myself. I have Good Donor picking up a donation today, so that’s a good thing.

Holy Crap! I just made $60 doing absolutely nothing!!! (or why I hate Pharmaceutical Companies, Insurance Companies, and the FDA)

I know this sounds like a scam, but I swear it’s true. All I had to do was drive to my local pharmacy and pick up some prescriptions and WHAM – $60 extra in my wallet.

$60 is not a small amount of money. Not with the rise in gas prices, the cost of food and anything associated with owning a home. You and I both know this. Do you want to know who apparently doesn’t know this? The FD-fucking-A.

They still maintain that “A brand name drug has to go through 10-15 years of research and testing in animals and people before it can be sold to the public… All of this testing can cost over $1 billion.”

I call shenanigans!

We’ll use my case as an example. My husband and I both use Singulair for our allergy and asthma problems. There have actually been periods in my life when I was miserable because I couldn’t afford the drug, even WITH insurance. Our current insurance charges $40/30 day supply for most name-brand drugs. That means R and I were spending $80 a month on this medication and now with the generic available (FYI – it’s called Montelukast SOD ), we’ll be able to cut our costs to $20/month, which is a BIG deal when money is tight.

But even though R and I were paying $40 a month (as were millions of other Americans), our insurance companies were also paying additional money at the same time. And for 10-15 years.

And for what? Why is the expiration date on a patent a certain amount of time? Aren’t some drugs easier to develop than others, like extended release versions? Don’t some drugs require less trials. I’m not an idiot and I know the pharmaceutical companies pour investment money into hundreds of medicines that never make it to market, but I don’t see any of these companies crying poverty.

But I am. And it has a HUGE impact on my health, and I’m sure my story is not unique.

I have been having problems with my depression lately. Medicines that used to work, no longer do. So Doc T started raving about this awesome new med that she wanted me to try. I was a little reluctant to add another $40 to our monthly costs, but my mental health is more important, right? Well, it’s not more important that nearly $100 for ONLY 25 pills. And that would be EVERY month. I can’t afford that. So instead we’ve been trying a mixture of generic drugs to get me through until we can figure something else out.

Maybe this drug would help me, but I’ll have to wait 15 years to find out I guess unless we hit the lottery.

And the insurance companies are no better. In addition to my depression, I have a severe problem with migraines. Luckily the main treatment med (Imitrex) has a generic version available (Sumatriptan). The problem? I can ONLY get 18 pills per month. Huh? Do you know what migraine treatment meds do? They constrict blood vessels. That’s about it. They’re not addictive and they usually don’t have severe side effects. You know what I can get TONS of? Vicodin. 60 pills is $4.06. An addictive narcotic is not a problem with the insurance company, but a medication that has an extremely specific use is limited. And as any migraine sufferer knows, when things are at their worst, you can get migraines more than 18 days a month AND it can take several doses to finally kill the damn thing. And then they wonder why there’s a prescription drug problem in this country?

I don’t know. I guess in the end, it’s all a scam after all.