All By Myself

Yesterday I took my parents to the airport so they could fly out to take a 5 week cruise around the orient. I’m really glad they’re going on this trip, it should be amazing.

But I’m a little anxious too. When I’ve felt horrible or overwhelmed in the past, I could always get a Mommy break by dropping Bella off with my folks. I won’t have that option for the next 5 weeks.

In all honesty, I only REALLY have 3 days on my own since the hubby teleworks on Wednesday and is off on Friday, Saturday and Sunday. But I worry. I’ve joined a lot of Lyme groups lately and have started hearing a lot of horror stories. People having horrible flare-ups, even during treatment.

What am I going to do if I have a flare-up and the only way I can “function” is to take Vicodin every 6 hours? I don’t get loopy on Vicodin, but I do get sleepy. This means a lot of time letting Bella watch TV instead of interacting with her or taking her places. And that will suck.

So, I’m keeping my fingers crossed that I have a good 5 weeks. The new version of the Uber Cream that Doc T prescribed arrived and seems to help a bit more. The heat wrap is an option as well. Vicodin is my last resort.

Bella is finally no longer sick, but she’s not going to sleep or getting herself back to sleep very well, which means bad nights. If I have to, I’ll just nap every day when she does. What other choice do I have?